A Sudden Urge to Buy Life Insurance
April 19, 2008 by Laura | Trackback URI
I am loaded down with things that I don’t deserve. I have a husband who kills bugs, takes out trash, pays the bills, knows me and loves me anyway, understands when to let me cry and when to offer a solution, has a great sense of humor and is a hard worker. I have a daughter who is smart, talented, funny, beautiful, and very easy to be around in spite of the fact that she’s a teenager and these are supposed to be difficult times between us. We have a home - small, but more than adequate to our needs and in pretty good condition, in a pleasant neighborhood. I have a job that I like nearly all the time. Our pets are healthy. We’re living within our means and paying off old debts. We have a variety of friends that are a joy to be around. Our church is wonderful. More important than all those things, we have eternal life through Jesus Christ. If we had nothing else, that would still be more than enough.
But just listing those things is inadequate. I wish I could explain - how lately my daughter and I have laughed so much and just enjoyed each other’s company more than we ever have before. How last night my husband was in the living room doing some work he’d brought home on his laptop, and I just watched him and felt this indescribable tenderness. I have this hyper-awareness of how blessed I am and how grateful I am when I know - even though most people would describe me as a “good” person - what I’m like inside.
I try to rationalize these undeserved blessings. Maybe it’s just our turn to be happy. God knows we’ve had troubles in our past; maybe He’s just giving us a break after all that. Maybe it doesn’t mean anything at all; maybe it just is what it is. But there’s a part of me that wonders if maybe this is the calm before the storm.
I have the feeling that I should be stockpiling these memories like a miser hoards cash. I have a sudden urge to buy life insurance.
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